Growing Up

I’ve been reflecting a lot about my childhood. I am going to be a Senior next year and I’ll be graduating. I have had so much going on these past few years and I feel regret that I didn’t cherish more moments. I used to think it was weird how upset people would get over growing up. I couldn’t wait to be older, but now all I want is to be carefree and happy again.

I am a sentimental person and I hold on to my childhood memories for dear life. My dad tells me stories of when I was little and I get very upset when I don’t remember. He used to say, “ Nana, you got something on your lip!” and I would fuss, pleading “Get it off dad!” He would kiss me and my world would be calm again. I used to sing “Don’t Cha” by The Pussycat Dolls to my mom in our apartment. I get emotional thinking about everything my parents have done for me. I want to make the best out of my Senior year and get rid of some of the regret I feel. I want to make it an easier school year. My mom and I plan to travel a lot this summer and she’s letting me take easier classes next year.

I am scared of what’s to come, but I know it is inevitable. I know I won’t be my dad’s little girl anymore and my mother won’t cook with me in the kitchen. No more birthday parties, Just Dance, or swimming in the rain. Instead it will be replaced with bills, work, and more responsibilities. I wish I would’ve realized what I would be saying goodbye to so soon.